In the Moment

Sunday, March 14, 2010

I can't believe this...

My ring is gone. It went missing at work on Saturday morning. Everyone knows about it. We've looked everywhere for it. I have been so depressed about it. I feel like a part of me is gone. I am dreading these next two months because I want my ring back. I only have 69 days til our wedding. I just feel like crying. We're already in a financial strain, and THIS happens. I don't know what to do.

I just want to cry.

posted by Ellen @ 8:17 PM 0 comments

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Can you pass the breastmilk cheese, please?

Yummy, yum yum yum!

Umm...no thanks.

However it is very ironic that we are the only mammal on the planet that routinely consumes milk from another animal. We are also the only mammal that consumes milk outside of childhood/infancy. I mean, THIS really IS kinda strange, you have to admit. I wouldn't drink another woman's breast milk, but I will drink cow's milk and eat goat cheese without thinking twice. Cow and goats! They have hooves, and they smell bad. But I will eat their dairy products (and meat products) any time. Yet I find it odd that this person made cheese from human milk. Irony? I think so. (And lots of calcium! BAHAHAHAHA!) <---Lame joke.

posted by Ellen @ 9:41 PM 0 comments

My Name's Sake

One year ago, God decided that He needed another angel in heaven. He ended my grandma's suffering while here on earth, and took her in to His arms. She had suffered for over 50 years with MS. She was confined to a wheel chair for most of her life. She was a single parent, raising three kids. Her first husband would always tell Grandma that she was faking, that she was trying to get attention, and all this other crap. Then, eventually, he left Grandma and his kids for another woman. So Grandma was stuck. She had to find a way to make a living while coping with her MS. Did she ask for governmental help? NO! She found any way that she could to save money, even if it meant that she didn't eat breakfast so that they make their food supply last longer. She also ended up being a "calling service" for a hotel in Chicago. In other words, if people wanted to make reservations for this hotel, they actually called Grandma's house! It was an experiment job for disabled people, and she was chosen for it. Grandma was also all about research in finding a cure for MS. She was a spokesperson for the MS Society and got to meet a lot of people throughout her time. Eventually, she met John Wagner. They married when Mom was in her early teens, I believe.

Eventually, Grandma and Papa Jack ended up in a nursing home. Papa Jack died right before Amy was born. For the next 24 years, she lived at the Masonic Home. She was always known for her smile. She seemed to brighten everyone's day. At the end, there were a few nurses who wanted to put her on "anti-depressants" just because she had the nerve to go to the board at the nursing home on how horrible of a job they were doing. HA! They had a psychologist come in to diagnose her, and do you know what he said? "She is probably one of the most sane people I had ever met!"

I miss you, Grandma.

posted by Ellen @ 10:37 AM 0 comments

Sunday, March 7, 2010

This is it....?

Like many people, I do a lot of my thinking in the shower. So, a couple of days ago, I was thinking about my bachelorette party, my upcoming wedding shower, Rich's bachelor party (in hoping that they don't do anything too crazy...), then it dawned on me: Holy cow, I'm getting married. This is IT. I am going to be spending the rest of my life with this man, Lord willing. I will be sharing a home with him! I will be having *gasp* babies with this man! Er, well, maybe the kids, but we're not final on that. But anyway, everything just feels so...final. Not gonna lie, it slightly freaked me out.

(Disclaimer: No, I am not having any doubts about this marriage. These are just some thoughts that hit me.)

I will be a married woman on May 22nd. Wow. It's awesome and freaky all in the same package. I start to wonder if I will be a good wife. Will I be a good mother? Will I be a good help mate? I am praying that I will be, but it's with the grace of God that I will be someone that Rich needs me to be.

K. That is all.

posted by Ellen @ 1:26 PM 1 comments

Friday, March 5, 2010

Ew.

The GROSS Factor

I watched this video, and I must say, as a consumer, I am slightly disturbed, yet I also feel guilty. The thought of reselling "used" underwear should disturb people, right? We should feel repulsed, disgusted, and...well, angry...right?

Well think about it. Goodwill resells bras (even after a good washing). Third world countries definitely don't have a problem with this. They're lucky to even have bras and underwear! (Hence why I feel guilty...) Is this really something that we should really be feeling "disturbed" about when there are people who don't have food, shelter, or clothing in the first place? If this is where our priorities are, then that, my friends, is The Gross Factor.

posted by Ellen @ 11:44 AM 0 comments

I'm Lovin' It

I have come to realize that I really do like McDonald's breakfast foods. I know that it isn't the best stuff for you, but holy cow. I freakin' love their hashbrowns. Their egg McMuffin wasn't the best this morning, but once I took a bite of their hashbrown, it was worth it.

We're getting a lot of wedding stuff done. Mom and I went to Hobby Lobby yesterday to buy some more invitations and decorations. I am ready to get this wedding put together, then get it over with! I am ready for MARRIAGE! Speaking of...I should probably work on my premarital counseling stuff.

posted by Ellen @ 5:43 AM 1 comments

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

First time in a long time

I haven't had a blog in forever, at least, not since I had a zanga. Do you remember those? Yea, I remember having one of them for my senior year in high school. We had to write journal entries for a particular class. (I believe it was for Philosophy with Mr. Levy.) But then, I think I deleted my zanga due to a certain relationship with a certain someone, who will remain nameless.

Anywho, that is not what this entry is about; it's about what to expect from these senseless ramblings. I will be updating whoever wants to follow me on what is going on in my life. I will also be posting questions in asking for opinion, hopefully, start some interesting debates. I will also post things that are going on in my heart, especially what I feel God is telling me. Sometimes, I'll even post about articles on what I read, give some input, then ask for others' input.

Here's to hoping that I can actually keep one of these decently updated! :)

posted by Ellen @ 11:05 PM 0 comments

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Name: Ellen
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About Me: I am a 22 year old woman who is about to be married to the most wonderful man in the entire world. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with him. You will also find that I am the most random person you will ever meet, and you will definitely see this with the variety of entries that I will be posting. I am passionate in almost everything I say and do. Life is art without an eraser.
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